Or, in a rough English translation, “”I finally came back to Thailand!”” It has been almost 3 years since I left the Land of Smiles, and many times during the last three years I thought I would never get the chance to come back to this place and to these people that I quickly grew to love. Thank God I don’t have to wonder anymore. Why do I continue to doubt His faithfulness to provide for everything that He calls me to? It is God that has given me a heart for Thailand and the Thai people – it certainly doesn’t exist in my old wicked heart that only seeks after self at every turn – it doesn’t exist at all without His giving it to me – so why would He give me the heart to be a part of the lives of these people here – to be used by Him in whatever way He chooses to minister to people here, and then not give me the opportunity to come back? When I spell it out like that, it sounds crazy doesn’t yet? Yet I continue to doubt. Praise Him that He is never dependent upon the size of our faith to accomplish anything in or through us – but because of His faithfulness to Himself, His character, and the value of His own name He provides all things – the calling, the response to the calling, the faith, the heart, the desires, the strength to carry out everything that He calls us to – EVERYTHING comes from Him so that He may receive all the glory for “”the things that He hath done.”” “”Lord, I believe; help my unbelief.””
